the bear's wOrld

2008-10-07T16:40:00.005+08:00

hieeee alll.
whoever you are...
ive moved: www.impecky.wordpress.com

yupp. that's all.
my Goodbyes to "bear-bear-is-cute.blogspot.com"
hahaahhaaas. wad a name.

2008-10-01T23:45:00.002+08:00

mm. nothing else but smiles.
yes, ive got plenty of them.
well, every little thing counts.
cos you' matter a whole big lot.

its probably just beginning,
or maybe its a misconception.
i dont knowww.
we'll find out really sooon.

=) if it does take 10years.
hohoho. i believe i'll still be running strong.

2008-09-30T11:05:00.001+08:00

=) im beginning to share my life.
someway. somehow. its happening.

2008-09-17T10:42:00.004+08:00

it excites me to see how the Holy Spirit moves.
=) this morning, i got a really encouraging email from jennn.
& hah i couldnt believe that this would come from her... haaa or at least not this soon!

okay here it goes:
"mich, as i did my QuietTime this morning, i felt i needed to tell you this. Everytime we pray, we're taking part in a process of being known deeply. Sometimes we are convinced that if we are deeply known, we will be rejected. But God knows you inside out & still loves you. So enjoy this process of being known & still being loved. Dont be afraid to be transparent towards GOd."

thats right. ive been struggling hard about being transparent with God. that was something i shared with my cell about. totally not cool. hiding like a hermit crab when you Know God sees everything. hoooo.

:D so i dont know wad else to say... im totally amazed.
And i'm still sticking by this. Never doubt wad the Holy Spirit can do. i love Him!
lets continue On! with this race of a lifetime.

2008-09-12T17:56:00.004+08:00

thank you li juan Chuan-Dao.
we're finally done with the vocal recording.
the ball is entirely in my court now. (sheeez)
and you reminded me that we needed to pray constantly when we're doing things for His Kingdom. *i must learn how to pray in Chinese one day*

its been so hard.
& its difficult to be working on this alone.
i prayed really hard but am still stressed about this whole "assignment".
what's really on my heart is causing pain.
why is it happening?

tonight's friday.
yea. im going out for dinner with dadee & momms.
its been a really long time since i dined with them.
& i feel like ive grown up so muchhh now.
mature enough to talk with them like an adult.
aaz. lets look forward to a great time.

"THE BEST IS YET TO COME"... yeahh but that doesnt mean.. you dont try your best noww peckhong. jiayouu lahhs.

2008-09-11T17:31:00.005+08:00

been staring at my green stools the past few days.
totally cool.
i ended the greens by downing chalky charcoal pills.
it hasnt been good falling sick.

=) but right now, i'm good. much better.
there're tonns to finish up at the work place.
voice recordings. editing.
Picture Scannings. Picture Cropping.
Slide transitions. Timeline listing.
Putting everything together.
ahhh. i feel like i'm about to die.

Simon's going in to army this friday.. i'll miss him.
no one left to help me out with editing.
matt's busy with School & tests.
yeahhhh. its Olright. I will finish it UP. for His Glory.

i cant wait to eat the Steamed Jiao Zi with Jen in a While.
we're heading to ViVo to get my lil' d Lard's present.
hohoho. i'm going to see Gillian this Sunday. after those weeks of looking at Silent photos.
daaaaa.

2008-09-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

shagged to the bones. but hahaha.
it was funn shooting an entire wedding from wee hours of the morning till the Clock stikes at 12midnight. was slacking quite a huge bit till the Dinner at the Hotel. when i went into full action of working hard at the 29 tables filled to the brim! with guests.

anddd. okay i'll keep this short.
ive been given yet another Wedding Shoot Lobang.
it's this Tuesday. barely 2 days after my 2nd Official shoot.
=) cheers to a budding moment of my life.

goodnight world.

2008-09-06T03:52:00.003+08:00

its 3:56 am right now.
there's a storm brewing at Telok Blangah Heights.
yeaa. i cant fall back to sleep.
I think im really excited about today,
the long awaited wedding of Danny & Judy.
heeee. i used to see them when i was a Kid..
and now as i enter Adulthood (really soon*)
it's kindof really exciting to be a part of their journey
as a minii Photographer! haaaas.
well, mr yiboon's tagging along tooos.
i hope we'll really enjoy ourselves today.

OKOKOK. working on the St.Matt's Day Video (NOW-cos i really cant sleep*)
i hope Jos wont kill ME on Sun morning.....
to All i'm meeting this Afternoon!
"I LOVE YOU GUYS!"
especially to one called Jun Hung Jie Jie.

2008-09-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

i'm soaked in Blessings.
On MOnday was a Morning VISIT to aunty connie's house for intercessory prayer, there after a yummy Jap Lunch at Little Tokyo along Clementi. then she brought me to Book BBQ pits & there she became my new "MOMMY". well, we hung around at her condo then we zoomed off next to High Tea at TCC. how how how classy. she remembered that i like Coffeee & insisted i feasted on either a Cheese Cake or Ice Cream... "SomeBODY was fussing over me!?"

on a side note' while all these were happening, i couldnt help but keep questioning myself.~ how ever on earth do i deserve such privileges. it didnt make any sense at all! and it still doesnt cos its way too good to be believing. I am overwhelmed by her "blessings". help me Ahpa to never take it for granted. i rejoice Most in the lessons She gave - with You Father, in the Picture. BIG BIG Picture.

=) then again, ive been spending lots of time with people from the YOUTH.
* which Happens to be my Job now. (it comes along with mixture of emotions though)

THENN, one thing i'm looking very forward to is Danny's Wedding this Saturday. WHY? cos i'm the Hired Photographer? er, yes but thats only to a Certain exent. It's more so because of the People attending this "long Awaited Wedding". I feel nervous yet Happy cos i'm finally going to meet all those JieJies & korKors i used to hang around with 10 years ago. ahhhhhhhh. ask me again!! but i dont know how ive gone through these 10 yrs intact! it's only & got to be by GOD's grace. Peilin Jiejie was just telling me this Big Piece of news while we were at Mos last SUNDAY & i could not keep still after that. ohh man.

olright, im feeling sleepy cos today's been a Long day. dinner at Dotz's place was nice & warm. but i still feel that i need more more more time to get closer to the Peeps from Forerunner. however, its great to know that i can talk about more things with crystal noww. i really enjoyed being around her cos we can just laugh about the same things. hahahahahahahahaha. okayyy that's all for tonight. i havent written something so long for quite a long while. Coools.

2008-08-22T14:10:00.003+08:00

allow me to share. that my God is good.
Our God is awesome in the moments when we least expect.
its been a journey of learning. Life's full of that.
i'm on the ladder, step 20 going on 21.
=) i want to try doing something today.

to give thanks for things i have
- lets try tilting the pessimistic perspective for a bit!
i'm glad that i could open up my eyes this morning.
(so that i can read His Word)
i'm glad for my ears.
(so that i could hear His songs of Praise!)
i'm glad i have Hair
(though the saloon aunty chopped off a large portion of my fringe & i look toot.)
i'm glad i could have a subway sandwich for lunch today
(somehow. God sent ilango for company!)

=) the weekends are approaching & i love it.
i'll be leading Worship at Youth Service this sunday.
do pray for me as i humble myself before Him & allow
the Spirit to touch the hearts of His worshippers.
+ pray also for the Band =) that our focus will be on Him.

that's about it.

2008-08-21T13:18:00.002+08:00

praise God for a new day to wake up to.
well, I did tear on my way to snooze gig today,
when haiks drove the Big Red Van to come pick the westies up.
b'cos i was afraid. but somehow, somewad God helped
made things a lot better when gig started today.
also...
=) thankyou for the many little moments
you've given me to spend with a special friend.
a friend who's slowly reaching deeper & deeper into my heart.
very slowly & silently... but somehow - it warms my heart~
i'm actually not freaking out.

ok. but again - i dont wanna dwell too much on it.
cos it might be one-sided. Into your hands, i'll commit again.
fix my eyes on you Jesus 1st. then allow me probably to share my life with him.

2008-08-17T17:24:00.003+08:00

there are days when i find myself home alone.
yeah, today's one of those days.
its slightly past 5pm on a wet sunday afternoon.
i was walking home in the rain.. rather gloomy and all which is probably why this post has a lil' tag of emo-ness hanging by the side. haha. i do realize that for many, being "emo" these days kind of make you cool. how real is that? very.

i know its okay to feel emo. cos we're humans. even doggys go emo nowadays (haha) but i dont like it when emotions go way out of control. when it overwhelms & takes you on a rollercoaster ride.

* * * * * *
i'm so glad i chatted with Peiwen over the phone, she called me from aussie & its great to hear her voice & ya. God knew i was lonely & so He provided a friend at such a timely moment. Olright.. im waiting for dinner. no one's homeee.

wowwww. anyone? be my dinner buddy?

2008-08-11T05:06:00.000+08:00

thank you runjin, for the Ride Up the Singapore Flyer =)
it was quite something for me! hohoho
(though i've been up the London Eye & all before...
but what's different is the people on board with me)

I also had a whacky time with THE ROYAL family to be.
Prince ilango & Princess Clara. Wedding shots were taken!
hahahaahaha. it was a nice sunday evening.

anddd,
Lunch with Shifu, Jen & KokoCrunch was Superb tooooooo.
really happy (except 'a lil' for tag meeting later ons)
olright. yeaa. tune in for some photos sooon...

2008-08-01T13:17:00.002+08:00

i wanna travel. =) i'll like to visit Taiwan again.
candice's heading down to a land of Bubble Tea, Smelly Tofu, Pineapple Cakes, Ma La Hotpots and the list never ends... i hope she enjoys herself.

thank God for the taiwan Fair at Harbour Front Stn though!
any taiwan freaks reading this.. & has an Urge for yummie taiwan snacks, pls head down & make your purchases...

=) hohohohoho.

2008-07-22T15:39:00.002+08:00

i dreamt of Kat a night ago..
& she called me out for dinner.
it has been so long since she's left.
and it dawned on me that i really missed her so.

so much that i awoke with tears.
(it puzzles me that i actually have a dream like this)
.. but its olright, Kat's going to be back soon.
in less than 6 months. weeees.

2008-07-18T17:09:00.002+08:00

i have a new bunch of keys.
a pretty big bunch to the gate & doors of my new workplace.

i've got 2 glass cups on my table.
Tweety's for Kopi & Sylvester's for Water.

i've got 4 new co-colleagues.
lots & lots of love i have to give.

=) its friday... the weekends are here. hoooray.

2008-07-14T22:56:00.003+08:00

so much has happened in the past 2 weeks or so..
too much that it sometimes made me dizzy.

it began with attending SnOoze band practices..
then being Soundman for 'the Handicap Lot's' gig at COTA.
i ended my last day at Cold Storage. (it was not Freezing when i left)
then it was my darling Gina's Wedding where i did my photoshoot spree.
dearest Peiwen left for aussie & because i was photographer, i missed sending her off
right after... i had a few days of Slacking' (Serious Slacking!!)
and on friday i boarded the Cruise - to - no - where with Flop, Rach & Kai...
Missed joining Eric's Cell... (i mixed up my own schedule!?#@-)
on Sunday, i returned safely & got to church in time for Youth Service

Finally... tomorrow, i'll be reporting to work.
a new environment... or should i say, familiar yet foreign?
i' can't describe my feelings now, cos i don't know how to...

but there's something i do know. & that is... i miss both Flop & Jen a whole big Lot.

2008-07-04T10:54:00.002+08:00

wanna share yet another photo.

that's my Band - Snooze.

well, that makes all of us snoozies.

hohohoho.

the end.

2008-07-02T12:19:00.001+08:00

just for laughs.

whahahahahahahahaa.

i'm going to miss flop

a tonnnnnnne.

dog

2008-06-26T09:39:00.003+08:00

haha. i met this cute little thing last evening.

she's a furry little old pup'

who kept staring & staring

at my bbq-ed chicken wing...

2008-06-18T08:06:00.002+08:00

its wednesday.
day no.3 of the week.
new stuffs to look forward to again today.
probably new assignments / mini projects to accomplish...!
its been fun doing the tiny jobs. its been taxing to endure through it all but at last! its been encouraging to know that they can really be completed =)

the weekends will be here sooon. really really soon.
i will survive simone.. i will.

=) i realized that i really still love elephants. blue ones to be exact.

pretty elephants!

2008-06-11T17:04:00.003+08:00

don't you think this little cardboard elly is lovely?
ohh. i love him. =) such a pretty blue little thing!

2008-06-09T09:36:00.002+08:00

what's flip without flop? - nothing!?
boo hoo hoo hoo.

no kopi buddy.
no singing pal.
no crappy emails.
no lovely flop.

i have to endure this for 5 Days. today is day 1.
lets see how things will go... i miss you FlOP!

rejoice

2008-05-28T11:24:00.003+08:00

We rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Romans 5:3-5

thank you for K-buddies. & so many of them too!
it means *THIS* much to me. when will we all go again?

2008-05-21T20:12:00.004+08:00

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth i call to you, i call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than i. For you have been my refuge.

PSALM 61:1-3

2008-05-06T08:12:00.002+08:00

it is chewsday.
3 more days to the weekends.
i find myself sitting right here at my desk in the office at 8am again.
yes, its a new day to begin with.

thank you father for sweet moments yesterday.
sms-es that brought joy to my life.
i feel tempted Lord, to sometimes think further than i should.
Remind me Lord, to keep in focus with you as my first love.
The one whom i hold my highest regard for.
yup. patience. being patient is all i need.

Romans 15:5 says,
"May the Lord who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus."

mm, i see unity growing among the youths - i like that.

2008-05-01T00:46:00.003+08:00

prepare me lord.
the 6.6km race begins tomorrow.
i'm re-flagging off. it's not just the distance...
its time for metamorphosis

when will there ever be full surrendering?

2008-04-28T15:26:00.004+08:00

it was a special sunday, because i felt my lord's healing hand.

i smelt a sweet aroma as i sang in His presence.

ive never felt like this before.

its not exactly a new feeling... just something so refreshing.

yea, my God is ever so gentle & loving.

drums class is officially over~

the 1st batch of drumlets has graduated!

i can't wait for our debut Album to be out! hohoho.

each drumlet is entitled to 2 tracks. We're going to rock everyone off their seats. wheeee.

I'll post our album cover up here upon release...

yes, today's monday again - and i told myself that i'm going to be okay.

i treated myself to an ikea hotdog bun with lots of ketchup today.

thank you God for something called Lunch.

=) wanna end of now with a beautiful photo.

2008-04-26T23:47:00.004+08:00

ive always dreamt about supermarket sprees! running down the confectionery aisle with my own trolley & grabbing as much chocs and sweets that i can reach out for! grab grab grab~ hohoho! today i was there to witness one live. double thanks to cold storage =) just a little sad that i couldnt reach forth for any on the shelf displays because i'm not a participant. haahaa.

it was my 1st visit to pacific health care today.

& my 1st try practising for youth worship - as a worship leader.
there were moments of fuzziness. i felt the strong presence of God.

i'm off to bed now.
thanks for the looooong talk tonight.
i thank God for making you his victorious Child, helping me to put thoughts into perspective.
signing off with *that pleased smile*

2008-04-20T23:01:00.003+08:00

the weekend's gone again - in a flash.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Simon & Thomas!
i wish time would stall, especially at dinner time on sats.
it was really enjoyable having dinner together with the older ones.
=) i found myself in the company of the older youths & some already adults. hehe.
i tasted the joy of being the younger ones of the group again - looking up to them even for the simplest thing of getting sambal Kangkong onto my plate. those feelings were special. & i realised that its been soooo long since i last felt that way.
it's probably because i've been acting like Big Sister for a really long while - watching over my 'little ones - whom so very often would remind me that they're no longer babies & that they can fend for themselves already... (with a sian look on their faces) Hahaha. yeah i've probably been naggier than their moms. its probably time i should learn to let go.

not forgetting friday...
i did not make my way down for prayer meeting. yeah, it was all for work's name sake ~
i finally understood why even putting aside one friday of the month can be so so difficult. which probably is the reason why so many fail to turn up each time. yes, just this past friday has scared me - i've finally seen how scary the world can be. i'm not liking it one bit. Things haven't been easy. and my life's not okay. not entirely okayy.

It's almost monday~ in another half an hour or so.
i wanna close my eyes before the clock strikes 1200, goodnight.

midweek

2008-04-16T23:26:00.004+08:00

it was a long ride to the train station tonight.
Work finally ended! & it was time for dinner :)

i'm satisfied from Dinner ! my fav. mix of Sushi filled my GRUMBLING stomach. hahaha. Jen was definitely my joker - sparrow - honeystars Dinner Partner!

i realised that * Black Sesame * ice cream has a special effect on me.
It's makes me think aloud. like Uncontrollably~ which almost killed me.
only JEN will get wad i mean* hohoho

GOOODNIGHT! tmr will be thursday. JUST one more DAY to FRIDAYY!
praise the LORD.

2008-03-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

Sunday was fun :D and i wanna declare!

that i love each and everyone of them.

loves!! so so much just as my Father have loved me.

2008-03-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

Isaiah 42:16
"I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them."

this is a verse that came to me while i prayed this morning.
And the Lord gave me what i needed.
A verse to encourage a friend.
I am so thankful that our God is real.
Allelujah to His Glorious Name.

I'm shagged from work today & its only MONDAY,
but because Of GOOD Friday & my jesus who died on the Cross for me, i am thankful for every circumstance i'm in.
GOodnight! very soon it'll be tuesday.

2008-03-15T02:29:00.003+08:00

just some picutres for laughs!

i got home really late today.
yeah - past twelve.
i was out having ice cream & coffee with the birthday boy.
wormy :) happy happy birthday.
suppers with you are nicee...

work's been really busy and many a times taking a toll of my life... but amazingly by God's Grace, i've always remembered to keep in close conversation with Him while i smoke through my Numerous Tasks at work each day. my to-do list is almost always filled to the brim... There's really so much to learn each day & i thank God for every opportunity.

I've learnt to take scoldings & shoutings in my stride. It's so easy to cry but i seeked God for courage to face up to mistakes and boo boos that ive made and for that` a pat for myself cos it shows that i'm a baby no more. We need to learn to be responsible. Like for one.. I really really really hate invoices. Especially problematic ones. I've been tempted to throw them away in the bin and pretend that i've never received them... hehehe it's Simple & i'm sure i can do a clean job of that... but whenever satan puts these thoughts in my head... the Holy spirit takes control & i turn around to do things the right way. yeahh. then i got the world's most brilliant idea :) i started talking to God while doing invoices & that really helped. it made things joyful.

last sunday was a rather cool outing to Sentosa with da youths! so many pple turned up and yeah. praise GOd for all the positive response... but i felt tired by the whole event... i was like mother hen. with 14 little chicks. im glad all got home safely :D

yupppp. its the Weekends. i will try to be happy

cos last weekend was a Grouchy one for me.
Lord, help me as i lead cell tmr. i need your guidance in Jesus name

2008-02-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

its mOnday.

say yeah! with me, cos i got a load of Goodies to lug home tonight.
I'm going to look so unglam with that Mega Red Paper bag - well, stuffed with GlorioOus goodies like a can of Abalone! Cookies & Prawn rolls and more more more. hahaha.
its my first time getting a can of ABALONE! :)
& WHY is it that im feeling ecstatic?
Ohh noooooo. - i thought its only the aunties who'll get this kind of reactions.
sianz

i wanna be home soon :D

2008-02-01T12:03:00.000+08:00

heh. some of my favourite photos from The Project RunAway.

embracing those fond memories digitally.

2008-01-26T09:07:00.000+08:00

i feel like a shaggy dog no more.
cos i went for a hair cut. snip snip & poof.

Chinese New Year is on its way!

2008-01-13T18:58:00.000+08:00

ALOOHAA!
my sincere apologies to a mini pool of my blogfans! wHAHAHAHA.
i have been away from my Posts for close to 2 months i know.
but thanks for being ever so faithful & patient.

Double O Seven has beeen a wild ride for me.
Whole year round & Including the CHRISTMAS season and the NEW YEAR.

Okayokay - if you wanna know the details, i'll be glad to share with you.
Loads of lessons learnt.
And a tremendous amount of things have happened...
haha. i'll probably flood blogspot if i spat everything out. so hOhohold it back.

tomorrow marks my fourth week at my new work place.
yes, i'm no longer working with the little rascals at Heartfriends. i miss them sometimes.
anyways, it began on Christmas Eve and i've been working hard in adapting to my new lifestyle.
A Positive CHANGE - New Experiences - New Insights.
and i'm going to face this as a Challenge.
i thank you Lord for this so-TOUGH a training Ground.

club med Bintan

2007-11-27T09:51:00.000+08:00

hello! i'm back. where from????
yeah - it was a Get.Away for my family last week!
Off to CLUB.MED.Bintan for 4 Days :)

Its been lovely spending time with my family..
Sitting by the Beach, Downing drinks from the Bar (All F.O.C), having Buffet meals, swimming like some water monsters... oooOo. It was coool. Plus! the most important of all, having the perks of looking at Hunks all day long. HAHAHAHA. spot spot spot spot *SpOtted!!

yeah. it's beeen a real leisure trip. excellent! because the Service there is GradeA. It's highly false if someone goes and return feeling short changed by some service that's not up to standard. It didn't happen for me. ahh and the Coolest thing of all is that all (G.O)Staffs are of Different Nationalities. i met a taiwanese & a korean. both gorgeous! hohohoho.

olright oOlright. enough said.
pictures are up on multiply! GO take a peek if you want to!

overly overly burnt*

off to bangkok!

2007-11-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

Sawadee kha!
chan (i) want to show you some photos of my so very exciting trip!

always proud of my air ticket!

to make this entry more thai-ish

Somewhere near our Hotel!

jason.me.clara.zen

Spicy tom yum. aroi mak! = delicious!
Tom & i

p'miow & i & the hippo!

At Departure.....

4days weren't enough! and just as the trip was special to Clara,
it was 100 times more for me.

one. it was safe & awesome
two. i got to eat authentic Thai food!
three. i got a new pet called Tamagotchi Zen.
four. i got my exercise from all that walking!
five. i got to do shopping! loads!
six. Clara was my goood shopping buddy.
(very encouraging in psycho-ing me to buy stuffs!)
seven. i took many many many photos!
eight. i had good sleep every night!
nine. i met up with p'miow & Tom.
ten. Tom left me with a very sweet note at the departure gates.

olright. i'm back now. i wonder when i'll be travelling again! yayyy.

2007-10-31T23:01:00.000+08:00

this is a photo of P'miow & i :)hohoho. my beloved friend from thailand.

yes. this Photo's up because i remembered the Good Old times we spent together! and i'm bursting with Excitment to meet up with her again!
.
.
.
hohoho. yupp i'll b off to Bangkok this Sunday,
It's a late morning flight with my Church peeps!
and... i have not done any sorts of packing yet!!!

there are like tonnes of things to do this week~
it's almost taking my breadth away.
I learnt my lesson. Never to Act so Gung Ho again.
I needa learn how to say NO sometimes.

La-Gorn

2007-10-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

i spent a monday without blues today.
i learnt to fill my mind with happy thoughts
thoughts that would please my Lord.

i had a random online chat with Zhenjie tonight.
my crusader role model.
It's been so long since i last saw him. He was in his
2nd yr when i first stepped into pOly. He said some
nice stuff tonight.. and it made me wish that I'll love a
Close friend if i have one like him' ahahaha.

olright, thats all.

2007-10-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

i had my piano lesson this weekend!

like after a break of twoo whole weeks.

(thats because i've been playing for

the youth Band) and im so glad that

i have Danny coaching me. sometimes

it just makes me feel like i'm the

luckiest 20yr old around st.matts.

the 2hrs-long lesson turned out in a

God led way. yeah i strongly believe so'

and i was caught totally unprepared.

well, i actually did scare myself. I didn't

know that i could show myself so vunerable to

someone i've merely known for less than

a year. ahhh. putting aside all those

paiseh moments....we did talk about

some Band issues that made me fill

my bucket almost instantly.

the whole thing was way too apt.

That lesson's SPECIAL and Danny

will always be someone whom i'll

hold my highest regard for :) yeahh

2007-10-13T14:43:00.000+08:00

crush. crush. crushed...
i wanna get rid of all my junk feelings.
i hate the masks ive been wearing.
i know Lord, You've taken away my shame
but now, help me to change.

please.

2007-10-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

i can't accept the fact... THAT i was actually looking forward to see you last night. haa - i just feel like laughing at myself.

im down, tab's down.. candice's mia-ing, kris's meeting me on fri...
oooghed. i wanna spend more time sleeeping. im not doing okay.

coughh

2007-10-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

the 9pm show really gives me the creeps.
uugh. frigging scary...
it just goes to show how much the local media is improving.
:) every aspect of this show, from scripting to filming to editing
and promoting deserves much applause! i really think they did well.
okay especially the song writer for the pieces used in this show.

pardon me for being a critique here... maybe the media business is
something really interesting to venture into. THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY.
woohoooo.

okay. im off now. booo.

2007-09-21T07:47:00.000+08:00

here's the video from GODTUBE.
ever so real. enjoy it ppl!

2007-09-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

its thursday. finally finally thursday.
i got through mon, tue & wed sickly.
i'm alive again.
and It's time to start moving around again.

I was glad i went for the Discipleship class
at Church Last night. i wriggled my way there
and felt ill... but as usual,
It' left me thinking...
and pondering about
the issues we covered.

hohoho.
and there's gonna be a meeting tonight.
i like meetings. especially those that deals with
issues with relation to my abba Father.
I have more than enough time for that.
It's gonna be up on my list ... 1st
so - i'll be home late tonight'

and pple reading, pleaseee enjoy the songs i have here.
They are really my favourites!! :)

2007-09-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

had an awfully good rest.
its been loong, since i ran a fever
and i got to stay under my comfy covers.

:)
and i just love this new song
that's up on my blog.
i'm starting to love amei's pieces...
she's probably my first fave female singer.
and its been unexplainable why i'm hooked
on to the whole hype of 星光帮1. i know its
long over, but these people with dreams
and a never-say-die determination
just pumps a constant adrenaline rush
into me almost unintentionally.

:)
i thank you Father, for the time I spent over
at Sharon's place. I loved the tea after dinner
and i liked having chats like these even though
there were puny slots of awkwardness, still,
i enjoyed myself. I love her home, the dining table,
the cool wall clock and just about every other thing
in that cosy house. Being there just makes me wonder
unknowingly about how my life would be like after
marriage. hohoho - if ever.

and its time for bed, cos there's work tomorrow.
thank you sharon' for the prayer.
though i know it's almost impossible for you to read this post ever!

2007-09-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

all smiles. and hip hip hurray!
:) Last Ride Two is finally over.
It's been a wheely wildly ride.
thankyou krisy & tabs - for telling me that things will be alright.
:) it really is a load off. phew.

Andd i totally enjoyed D&D tonight!
it's dinner & dessert la (for the dummies)
It's been a long time since i really really enjoyed dinner.

I liked the Udon with Chloe, Steffi & Candice!
I enjoyed the Ben & Jerry's talk...
I loved the chats & jokes...
I embraced the love coming from all my youthies...

aa but one thing... not so pleased, is that i can't get to bed now.
It's the first time i can't sleep after drinking Coffee.
brr... time to spend time chatting my Daddee then... zOom'

2007-08-17T06:31:00.000+08:00

"There's a miracle waiting to happen,
we just have to do our part in rolling away the stone."
(John 11) - Rev. Dr. Phil Pringle

i really like the statement above!
thanks budd for sharing tht.

i'll be home at 3.30pm this afternoon
gogogo.
work is about to begin in 15mins.

woosh.

2007-08-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

oogh.
its half way through the month of august.
more than half the year 2007 has gone by.
i see friends beginning Uni, and i see friends
settling down in their workplace.

:) i'm feeling oOghed.

work's going to begin at 7am tom.
and I've to be up before the sun comes up.
how wonderful'

dinner tonight with tabs, kris & joyce was
whoppy. I liked my onion rings. andd - my perception
of Darius changed tonight. hohoho.

I am lOoking forward to the Weekends.
packed as usual : )

aug

2007-08-02T00:46:00.001+08:00

hello.
its the month of August :)
long time since i'm up and blogging
away like the old- school- days.

i'm alive and well.
will pop by with stories the next time ok!
bye

turt isn't over

2007-07-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

its a weird feeling logging in here to post a new entry.
it's been more than a month.

:) i'm back.
i've returned from an extra.ordinary 6weeks
in the entire 19 years of my life.
TURT has ended. well, but not so because
i'm going to begin living my own TURT.
and if you're still wondering what on earth is turt,
friend... you really haven't talked with me for a long long time.
it's basically an acronym that reads "The Ultimate Road Trip".
i am proud to have been a part of TURT2007.

uhuh, and this begins it.
in that 6weeks, tonnes of things happened.
questions were raised, faith was tested
and most importantly, prayers were answered.
our God is good. My God is awesome.
more to proclaim... ... ...

I gave myself a holiday today.
:) i woke up realising that i didnt have to rush off to work
this morning... the Centre's closed for the Day... giving us
teachers a rest because on Youth Day we were opened from 7am-7pm.
i was happy that i got to spend time with myself.
but i won't call it a personal retreat yet because i wasn't
being very GOd focused today.
I just enjoyed myself with a Swim today, that's all.

now that the day's ending, i'll conclude... i really like days like this :)

2007-06-01T08:45:00.000+08:00

been too busy
been too attached
been too lazy.

i am not feeling the blogging spirit.
Be back laters.

2007-05-22T02:06:00.000+08:00

thank GOd!

for the wonderful poops who turned up today!

lets see who i recall. :)

ShiFu & Hazel, Caleb & jen,

Nic & Vic & Uncle BEng Hong,

Richard, Jason, Candice

and lastly Daddy & Mommy.

hah- you guys are a lovely Bunch! can't explain how happy i felt inside to see you all there, i'm serious! the past two years at commissioning was lonely but this yr there's even David Going on a Gen12ii proj! All glory to GOd!

A list of things to Thank GOd for:

1. Raising my Full Support $$ before TURT started

2. Pastor & St.MAtt's for being so encouraging! (caleb toos!)

3. Giving me a gen12ii Buddy like david-

4. putting me in turt to learn new things each day

5. for Sharon who is my wonderful tracker.

and beautiful

photos taken tonight!

That's me

Sharon & i

My Turt Team! & ForeRUnnerS!

me & tabs & evan

tabs, Uncle TONG! & me

The St.Matt's Poops!

2007-05-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

i'm soaked in the presence of the LORD. amen.

home. 'after a long day out today.
it started with a ride down to Cantoment Rd and giving 2hrs of tuition - the last half an hour, spent on lunch-ing some home cooked food. yums. then i popped by Church to say hi and i managed to talk a little with Chloe today. travelled down to City Hall cos the Girl's Cell Grp's going out today. no bible lessons no nothing - just a time of fellowship :) thank God for providing the ppl! Rachel. Gina. Candice. Steffi & me. yeaa - i found it quite warm~ lets wait and see who' wants to join us the next time round. We parted and i had my Subway dinner by the fountain. *splashy splash... In times like these, i thank GOd for Candice, to be my dinner company. we talked... Done with dinner, i buzzed off to Jen's house because i was invited to attend The Meta Cell for the 1st time today. we covered the book of John chpt 1 :) 1 thing i learnt today - to be a witness for Christ. I really want to set a good example to those around me. Short Sharing Session and it was time to say GoodBye.

this week's been long! many ups & downs going on in my life...
mon & tue = gen12ii BootCamp
i spent 2 days with my new turt team and sometimes it does seem sweet but often, totally bitter. i need to overcome this fast. i don't want to be any sore player. and so - i'm frightened Lord for the Alpha camp come mon, tue, wed.

wed & thu & fri = HeartFriends BASC
i was back to work. and i struggled a lil to hold back the reins. the kids were going mad without control and i could not stand them Bullying the new volunteer when i returned on tue evening and so i played Judge. " ALL who broke the Rules deserved to be robbed of their play time " hehehe. i meant serious Business. So the "YOU Better listen to me or else~ " face came on and after that, they all became so guai like puppies again. ruff. i won.

wed night was dinner with joyce, peiwen, tabs :) swensens.
and that's about all.
farewell now.
it's the wee hours of SUNDAY and alpha starts tmr. helpp.

2007-05-10T09:01:00.000+08:00

awful.

i've got struggles.

2007-05-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

On FRIDAY,

I said my good-byes to Haidie.

On SUNDAY,

We celebrated Andrew's Birthday at Vivo City

and i bought my mOm a pair of SK earings :)

Then it was MONDAY,

andd i stayed over at tabi's and we celebrated
her birthday at WaruKu Jap Restaurant with
the nicest NgeeAnn peepoles : ) wahahahaha!

and now, time to say GoodNight!

miss clarity cafe

2007-04-25T21:17:00.000+08:00

Dinner with MolOcs last night! and yeaaah

see the beautiful photos we took. All smiles-

so it's got to be because we enjoyed dinner

with one another! It's So sepia~ hahahaha.

okay. it's really Great fun to meet up with

em' and we sit down, order the foody food and

we will start the rubbish rolling. Then you'll hear

outburst of laughter and see the swoping of

plates. well, its a rule that when you eat with us,

the plates travel round the table in full Circle : )

and yea. i ended my dinner with Esther calling

and talking to me for half an hour. and i bought

a nice watch from Bugis. am Proud of it!!

It served me well for today. OKay that's all folks-

the watch i talked about-

2007-04-25T07:52:00.000+08:00

ho ho ho!
i'm gonna have breakfast
with JoZeph Cho this morning~
it's macs at Clementi.

Anyone with no breakfast
BUddy can join us.
I'm serious : )

Lord, today will be a Great Day
cause i'm living for you. help me
be the best Teacher i Can be.
......................................................... amen

2007-04-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

happy birthday Candice! hahahs

this photo's from quite long ago! 6april2007.
and because jason just sent me, i decided to post it up ;)

i'm listening to Klove now and i miss kat. wonder how' she is on Doulos. sail sail sailing on. i hope she'll sail home soon!

2007-04-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

i made a little boy cry today.
and his name is samuel.
he was really naughty
and so i scolded him.

lunch tmr with artbox.
i miss poly life.
i do i do.

2007-04-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Si____mOn!
i hope you enjoyed yourself today.

(something to help myself)
DON'T QUIT

When things go wrong, as it sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit,
rest if you must, but don't you quit!

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns,
and many a failure has turned about,
when they might have won had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace is slow,
you may succeed with another blow!

goodnight world and hello my lord.

2007-04-16T11:40:00.000+08:00

i called aunty jenny tonight and she talked sense into me.
it isn't time to give up.
i shouldn't be this weak.

new plans new plans.

all the nice people out there.
pray with me please.
pray that i'll hold on firmly to jesus's hand.
he' won't let go.
if i ever fall- it'll be because i let go.

hm...maybe if i wore football gloves it'll help~
hohohoho.

i'll be trying.
jiayou pecks.

i will.

2007-04-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

yea i was sharing in cell group today that this week was probably an emo week for me. like one of those weeks that turned out sour and picky. there certainly are things to thank God for but i don't know why I'm focusing so much on complaining these days and getting myself upset for no rhyme or reason.

thank you shifu for being there. I'm glad i could be truthful with you about things. and you're the "guo lai ren" so it mattered that you understood. and to the ppl who listened to my crap, basically just 2 of you.. thank yOu.

i still can't believe that i' cried over such a small matter.
its been long since i cried like really hard. too much that it was so difficult to stop. okay maybe then it wasn't a small matter. it meant a darn lot to me. but again- there's no reason to cry because i haven't got any claim. i wasn't in any position to decide.
how cruel life makes out to be. so mad that sometimes it makes you feel like giving up.

not sure why but things are getting tiring.
the fire seems to be distinguishing.
the path seems lonely.
the love's been stolen.
i can almost say 'its the END!'

aa- dear one, please don't go away.
Lord, send your sparks again.

please. with all my sincerity.

2007-04-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

i think i enjoyed dinner tonight again - I've been spending tons of time with the peepos from Church! why? its unexplainable.

alright there has been pretty much going on in my life. eventful things that are happening because they're part of God's Magnificent plan. i mean- I'm pleased with my life now. some of you will know it because I've shared that i felt God's blessings in so many ways. poof and the wonderful people that he's put in my life.

tabi- cos she remembers to ask me out for dinner!
looie- for being truthful with me about Josh
candice- for listening to me crap
charms- making me feel i'm important
shifu & hazel- it's been Nuts being your tudii
jason- for not forgetting to sms me out for dinner with the grp
david- for being my nicest encourager
simon- for being in the MM headed by 6m-Yong!
aunty Serene- being my mentor
okay and more but it stays as this for now.

i talked with pastor this afternoon as i was waiting for miss Gwen to come so that i can go through theory with her. and we talked and talked and it ended all so abruptly. aiiis.
GOD. teach me, show me how not to be jealous. amen.

and i have a secret that only looie knows now.
its hard to keep it quiet. i'm serious.
i wanna shout it out loud but i haven't got courage.
i'm a toad. eh i'm supposed to be, bear.
ohs wadever-

i think all Chinese names tonight was nice! will try memorising them............
till then.

moloCs

2007-04-11T00:40:00.000+08:00

moloCs!
hahaha okay i had a Super Happy dinner today with the moloCs. if you're wondering, moloCs is made up of me, charms, looie and candice :) it was really enjoyable spending time together! photos will be up soon when charmaine decides to be nice and send them over.

you can't imagine the things we talk about la! the stoopid stories, our future high tea sessions, the repetitive qns. it was such an amusing time spent together!

Lord thank you for moloCs!
we rock!

Gooodnight and Good luck looie for tomorrow

JUMBOS

2007-04-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

yeah i'm listening to desiree loO complaining over the Phone now.
suay suay suay - she keeps talking about suay-ness. haha
okay looie this is something for youu.

Five-year-old Randy wanted a toy stagecoach for Christmas. While shopping with Mom, he found just the one he wanted. It was about 6" long and had cool wheels and dark brown plastic horses pulling it. “Mommy, I want this one. Pleeeease!” he begged. As young children sometimes do, he threw a tantrum, insisting that he get that stagecoach for Christmas. Mom said, “We’ll see,” and took him home.

Randy was sure he’d get what he asked for. Christmas morning came, and he opened the package confidently. Sure enough, it was the stagecoach he had begged for. He was so pleased. But then his older brother said, “You really did a dumb thing to insist on getting that coach. Mom bought you a much bigger one, but when you begged for that little one, she exchanged it!” Suddenly the small stagecoach didn’t seem so appealing.

Sometimes we’re like that with God. We pray about a specific need and tell Him how He ought to answer. We beg and plead—and God may even give us exactly what we ask for. But He may have had something better in mind.

Phillips Brooks once said, “Pray the largest prayers. You cannot think a prayer so large that God, in answering it, will not wish you had made it larger.”

Do not presume to know what’s bestWhen you begin to pray;But say to God, “Your will be done,”Then trust His perfect way. —Sper

Large asking results in large receiving.

woos and yup! thank you tabi for Shopping with me today. How was it being a MODEL? and i had fun swiping my card today. okay i'm sleepy. GOOD night!

kidS.

2007-03-29T08:14:00.000+08:00

my little darlings.

the momentum is going choo-choo-choo-choo. i think I'm still learning lots from the teachers, cooks and the kids everyday.

the kids' smiles are like fully charged power re-generators. it makes you Happy at the end of an exhausted day.

yea- yesterday i did my 1st marking. I actually felt like i was a "teacher". and a new discovery, i use red pen for almost everything now.. there's like red pens everywhere, in my bag, on the table, in my locker ~oaks.

yups. looking forward for more each day.
Lord, help me as i battle my way at heart friends.

Help me to instill discipline in the kids.

Lord, show them that you love them and in due time, grow them to be willing servants for you.

amen.

lessons today

2007-03-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

it was many many lessons today.
a very important one today about WOrship.
I attended da "Worship Workshop".
yeaa and i was happy to see eric chong teaching. Haven't seen him in such a long while. i mean being around the youth. not trying to say anything here about the two leaders, caleb and eric BUt i seriously love them both. you know - just like how you love some ppl because you respect them So mUch?.. yea that's the feeeling. and so i learnt tonnes today. i managed to identify the things eric shared about and truly its amazing how God works in sessions like these as reminders to me.

it was kinda fun having lunch with them all today. its funny somehow that even up to now, sometimes i'll sit back and wonder in amazement at how much progress I've made in the youth. talking in a sense that i'll actually put in effort to be around with them. And the Family feeling i get just warms me up. i'll call this silent bliss :)
and yes i also enjoyed being in the sanctuary today folding bulletins. it's the people around me.. i'm sure.

DINNER was just super-ultra-hugo-mighty FANtastiC! i was crowned the Laksa Leaves Chopper. can't believe it but i think i can chop pretty well. proud of this little skill i have. i was Chopping away a paper bag full of laksa leaves. hahs.
It was a Celebration at SharOn's Place for the Closure of SOUL2SOUL's tour season. Real good sharing tonight and I'm glad i talked with ppl. and these ppl are Adults. Young Mature Adults. yupps.
all in all - God has been revealing many things to me in these few weeks and sure i yearn for more more more each day.

tomorrow will be yet another challenging day, Main Service - Annual General Meeting - Meet Silvia Session - Dinner. wooos. all packed up.
andd so, nOt to forget in times of busy schedule, i'll do myself a favor, to focus on my maker. my master.

i am proud to be God's Doggy!

yay

2007-03-23T03:00:00.000+08:00

alas. the video's done and proper.
PRODUCED. at like 2.30am
its been rather enjoyable editing - i finally got real interaction with the KIDS. i always believe there is a need to spend time with Whoever or whatever you're going to film before you actually film them. andd yes i will stick by it : )

tonights dinner was simple yet special. i met mommy&daddy for dinner at MAXwell. yea. saw aloy and Dawn after dinner too. okay i was eating at this teochew porridge stall and was grumbling away about the foood when i suddenly received a phone call.
This phone call made me pondered about things, and i viewed it as a lesson and reminder that GOd gave me. seriously, GOD never fails to let me learn something new each day.

okay meanwhile i'm all achy pain-y. it's terrible mann. Endurance needed.
Gotta run now. Packed Day Up.
SWEET DREAMSs

thumbs up

2007-03-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

i had a good weekend.
yes i think i did.
my piano lesson on friday turned out happy, like the previous week because i could play. then we had practice for the bbq sing-a-long and after which i had a dinner treat from aunty Serene. she talked with me a lot on friday night and i think i've got more better, Bigger pictures now :)

hoots. my MOnday was certianly Blue because i went to work at My 2nd job, A Property Estate Company today. JOb scope- Telly Marketer.
and as i stepped in to the office today i had this
"i-can-conquer-all-problems" mentality because i had survived the previous telly job.. HAHAHA but to my horror, i felt sooo drained and meaningless on the way home from work. So much! that i had to call Candice and talk to her to de-stress.
sleepy now. gooodnight.

kidOs

2007-03-16T08:07:00.000+08:00

a kid asked me today - JieJie will you be here tmr?
i said yes and he replied "yay!"

i felt the lOve once again, very simply coming from the Kids.
we went Gardening today and i think we all had fun in the SUn.
in a blink, tmr will mark the first week i've been there at HeartFriends.
and ARTBOX without me & spidey bbut with yiBoon Will return home from Taipei. i bet they were having Pure FUN! just like how Keon says HIS LIFE IN Japan IS GREAT. yeaas.

alrights its time to head to BED.
Got a long day Up.
Thank you God in times of Busi-ness. Thanks for every experience.

some new challenges

2007-03-13T09:19:00.000+08:00

quick updates.
1.the tour Season of SouL 2 SouL is Over. THANK GOD.
many many different experiences in the 4 Gigs that i've helped out in. yeaa.
2.i've found Jobs again. not 1 but 2! one's an office job and the other a teacher job.
3.artao's and the grp will be back this Friday!
4.i met up my mission team last Sat for the 1st time.
5.youth BBQ this Sat evening.

alright- got to run! late for work already.

they're gone

2007-03-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

i turned on the radio tonight- an old habit that i kept under my covers for a pretty long time. all because i needed some company. familiar tunes came out from that little grey machine and i'm settling into the night with much ease.

i was there at the airport today, without my passport. and of cos, no air ticket. i was there to witness the departure of my dear friends who were all geared up for the taipei trip. all smiley faces and eyes gleaming with excitment. i remembered when we were still in the midst of our terrifying assignments last sem when i suggested that we should make taipei our Holiday destination. yabble dabble and yeaa. truth's out- i did all the talking and nothing's happening on my side here. My Da-dee said No! and therefore i've been cut out from the trip.
Looking at them walk through the custom gates today, i felt hurt. i felt so strongly about how i'm missing out all the fun that they're about to experience in the Next 8 Days or so. i love them so much that i wanna go play with them. you know how it feels? Do you KNOW?!

and yeaa as i was saying this is one of the many things that have been so difficult for me to take it in my stride and live with it. HOW can i? it's so difficult. i feel absolutely embarassed whenever i'm out with them and i have to go home Once i receive that "YOU BETTER BE HOME" phone call. it just sucks awfully. I want so much to rebel but i know it's not right. deep down i know the Obey your parents portion... but having to live with this is suberply awful. urgh. okay i just can't explain it.

and. weird things have all been happening.
ooos. i'm preparing myself for the 2nd plunge.
when they return with the all so Wonderful photos of Taiwan. and i know i will feel the hurt again. bye.

i'm home.

2007-03-06T20:19:00.001+08:00

i miss this place, i really do.
sorry but i was out living a work life for the past 3 weeks or so. and that explains why the cut off happened. I'm done with the telly Marketing Job and right now i'm living a life full of Holidays.

okay, this will all be random. Sometimes random-ness is great.
1st off, i haven't talked to Charms since she collected her Alevels Results. i don't know wad to say to her. but dear charms, it has been fun working with you cos you'll laugh with me at names like Mok Chit Bong and Ng Boon Keng.
2nd- tabi's off to Malaysia and i hope she comes back sooon. and yeaa last friday i had dinner with Peiwen at Spaggedies! it was yummmy. we will go out for dinner again. we need each other's company.
3rd- i was invited to TriXie's Birthday Party and i enjoyed playing Murderer there. i'm serious. and yea the weekend was marg's birthday as well. I hope she liked the SunFlower. well, 2 things that made me sad was that, having to Go home after trix's party while everyone else headed down to artao's house for Mahjong. and for marg's birthday party on sat, i wasn't even invited.

yeaa. its been hard having to take things in my stride and live with it. It's been tough tOugh tOUGH. I am supposed to be living my life happpily because i have God in me.. but somehow, somewhat, things seems to be on the contrary. i' think maybe, maybe, it's time for a fast.

drained

2007-02-16T10:08:00.000+08:00

and.. it's been a WORKweek for me. I took up the job last Friday as a tele-marketer at J.O.S and i'm happy that my contract lasts only for a week. hahs! it really isn't all that fun working. I feel drained from work life. and it's so super routine-d. okay i'm sick of hearing the dial tones and all the funny answering machines. phew.

last night was my 2nd' time being around with ForeRunner. well, i was there as a Roadie again. okay a Roadie simply means availing yourself for any task that's given to you. yup and so my jobs were to carry any of the big and little load(s), do a foodRun (Buying Snacks) setting up mike stands, renewing the batteries, coiling the wires, more, more and moreee. uhuh and then the Best Part last night was when tabi and Candice and Siti came visiting- oow i'm always touched. hehe

okay. its a BUsy Evening. Dinner at my House with all the Old Folks. can't concentrate here anymore.. Be Back really SOON!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everyone!

ARTBOX

2007-02-13T17:39:00.000+08:00

okay. eh Hmmph! listen up peepos.
I'll dedicate this ENTRY as i've promised to MY dearest mates!
Presenting to YOU proudly!!! A.R.T.B.O.X!
alright a brief history.
ARTBOX was formed sometime in July last year and there are basically 6 very important people that makes up ARTBOX. 1st on the list, SILVIA ONG JIA QI a.k.a(tao) then ALOYSIUS NG WEI MING a.k.a(死娘子）then YAP LI HUI a.k.a(mao) then DONOVAN WOON YIK HUEN a.k.a(xiong) then MICHELLE TAN SIYI a.k.a(spidey) and

lastly MICHELLE LIM PECK HONG a.k.a(feng).
Put all our last chinese name together and you'll get,

tao-ming-hui-xiong-yi-feng.
alright, we are a group of aspiring youths who dream of being someone famous oneday. hehehe. well of cos we're multimedia students and ta-da we've gone through the FYP torture together and we're still intact as a piece today! SHout Hurray!

OKAY. take a Look !

okay and so.. does the pics show wad a wonderful team i've had for my last sem? i remember spending so much time.. too much time with them till i tot it was never gonna end. so here it goes.. a short little heart felt stuff for every single one of them!
Starring...

Dear taotao!
you have been such a nice darling to me. yeaa. i remember you calling
whenever you run out of ideas and yep it's nice talking with you over the Phone. You're one of the Prettiest Friends i ever had okay.
No Lying...
and YUP! you are my princess forever!

Dear Aloy..
You've been a funny buddy! both in school and ya just in school. Thanks for being my Piano Buddy and one day i'm certain we will be Good Musicians. Live UP yOur Dream oK and stop! being a Si niang Zi already! i will miss all your dangerous Car Rides. Have fun in Army i'm sure you'll be tough-ened Up!

Dear MaoMao
my furriest friend around! haha it's been amazing how i knew you for So long la, all the way back in secondary School and we sticked around with each other in Poly too! yeaa i will definitely miss you but no worries i will still go find you and humhum often k! pls hor don't hide from me ar! i Love you!

Dear Spidey!
i am so glad that we did projs together! : ) and i salute you for your all so cool attitude always. hms. and i just wanna wish you all the BEst in University. hm continue being Gom and yes do meet Up with me when you're bored k! we go drink coffee together ya.

Dear Xiong!
Yo! you've been the encourager of the group and your presence is so so so important. I am grateful that you made me love chinese all over again.
there has been loads of fun memories with you and i know it's not time to say goodBye yet.
We all won't! and don't you start it! :)
hm, continue to dream Big dreams and shine ok. meanWhile.. prepare your heart for NS and Best Wishes to you xiong. Thanks for the FriendShip!

lovin' you all!

i'm sorry

2007-02-12T17:29:00.000+08:00

okay. i'm sorry people. especially to everyone in Agape youth! serious apologies okay.
yea.. about Candice's Condition. Apparently her dearest mama told me she was in ICU and on friday night i remember being super worried and crying my everything out. i remember praying like never before at the prayer meeting and then going on my knees to ask God not to take Candice away. uhuh and it was because the picture that came to my mind after the call to her mama was that Candice was stuck in ICU with tubes running all over her body and she was being pumped with high dosage of medicine.
yea. and yabble dabble dabble and so i sent the alert message out that prayer was needed.

Okay. I feel so embarassed now that i know that there was miscommunication and we were all like worried for nothing. so sorry ya. cos i fell for that too.
BUt through all these, one important thing that God showed me was the care and love that came about from agape youth. yea for the very first time i felt deep inside the importance of having the youth by my side. thank you GUys. and seriously Guys (cos the older people who called and went visiting were mainly the guys) yeaa. and so Candice is fine now i hope! more checks on the way and i know she's going to be FINE sooon.

and also another thing. i wanna thank Danny for giving me a chance to play at MainService on Sunday. It was great worshipping God through the keyboard. um.. of cos there were wrong notes here and there but i felt like i was spending personal time with GOD then. and i will continue practising.. :) but seriously, i am grateful for Danny because he has been extremely gracious to me. thankyou Sir.

yup, ending it off for now and once again.. sorry all!! that is.. if you ever drop by here. hahas sorry for making you all worried. lalala

friday

2007-02-09T09:07:00.000+08:00

okay.
i had good phone conversations last night with both runjin and candice.
these things are good once in awhile and yea.. my once in a while came yesterday.

woahs. Charms just called and i've got to Go.
Got Job Lobang* hehehe.
sorry taos.. can't go play Basketball already.
talk to you tonight ya!

GOODmorning WORLD!

MONDAY

2007-02-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

okay. it hasn't been easy coming on blogger because of a mini bug on my com that wouldn't go away. and i finally connected using my darling ibook and so it's blog time now in marg's room.

The Past Week has been awfully full of suprises and i am still recovering from some of them. It' hasn't been an easy journey(as usual) but very patiently i am waiting for GOD to reveal his Wonderful Plan for me. He is Working and i know it because i feel it.

OKAY. First and foremost...
i'll like to say: "I've Graduated!" HipHip Hurray. it's maddness to think that it's all Over so sooon.
i know for sure i'll miss my Poly Friends, especially ARTBOX.
My Next Entry would be dedicated to them all....

there are loads of things i wanna say but i just don't noe how to express myself. okay. i'll just Go all random. like wad i think will be wad i'll say. woooHoo. let me Begin.
I'm Ultra Happy that Candice is Coming Back in Less than A WEEK.
I'm glad that i helped baked some cookies today and was Bad because i left without doing any washing up.
I was happy to be on a Bus with a Pleasant Driver who said GOOD EVENING to me today although it was only a one stop ride.
I'm Happy that I spend Good time with Esther on the Bus yesterday when we left the Soccer Playing Guys..
i just tried my best to be a listener.
there are much more to say.. But because Marg needs her Bed.. it's time for me to Shooo.

Tomorrow's Packed with Lunch at Manhatten with ArtBox and Wendy.. and then Some Shopping and then HOME. THANK YOU LORD for making me Happy today. YOU rock my WOrld till it all goes Upside Down and inside OUT.
Love YOU!

yoo

2007-02-02T10:08:00.000+08:00

it's just Day 2 of the break free freedom after Graduation and i feel like i've gone through roller coaster rides of emotions.

1st on my list to thank, GOD!
and then.....
TABI - for being there with me. I kind of realise that
every time i go through some important things, you're nearby.
VIOLET - for taking out 2 hours of your time to Talk to me
over the Phone on Wed night. You Really Made Sense. THANKYOUU!
SHUSHYAN - for Calling to check on me even when you're Sick.

I am still shocked that so many things can Happen in just these short 2 Days.

HELLOS

2007-01-31T14:51:00.000+08:00

it's over at school.
but my life with God isn't over yet.
It's the beginning again.

BACK with more later. much more.

I lOVe CanDice!

2007-01-20T08:06:00.000+08:00

hellO.
i was so Uber happy on thursday when candice called me. ooo all the way from China okay.. I was so glad to hear her over the Phone :)
My Darling Candice.. you're coming Home Soon. Endure k.. it's just about 2 more weeks or so... We are Waiting for yOu.... and remember in times of lonliness, seek GOd.. Seek him because he will be there avaliable for you! Loving you my Piggy friend. You have to come back because we're not done with Charm's Birthday yet. woo lala.

alrights. i have beeen superly shagged out with doing animation. it really isn't as enjoyable as watching an animated film. Whole New Different Story. i feel tired but i need strength, Lord to sustain.
there's Cell Grp today,in the late afternoon and whenever i look over to each coming cell, i see hope.. & the many possibilities that we have to excel for HIM. i never wanted to be this HOLY. i believe strongly that this must be the work of the Holy Spirit :) BUT, one thing i know for sure.. is that i am loving God more and more each day. He is just Ultra Amazing!

okay. there are so many things on the TO-Do list... it's all running Crazily~
TODAY.
1. work on ACAN
2. Poster
3. ~~soundWoman for BandPrac~~
4. ~~Cell Group~~
5. ~~Dinner with Egnes & Isaiah~~
TOMORROW.
1. ~~Church~~
2. ~~YOUth~~
3. ECC (POSTPONED)
4. ~~ArtBox Project Meeting~~
5. ~~Work on Assignments~~
MONDAY.
1. Hand in FYP (LATE)
2. ACAN rush (DIDN'T TOUCH)
TUESDAY.
1. ~~ACAN rush~~
2. HANDED IN FYP FINALLY!
WEDNESDAY.
1. ~~ACAN rush~~
THURSDAY.
1. ACAN submission! (Nope, didn't submit)
2. ~~Audio Class~~ i Only attended Lecture
3. ~~Presentation Rehersal~~
FRIDAY.
~~FINAL PRESENTATION!~~
(Okay!! its over, but everything's not over yet!)

and i'll do all things through Christ who Strengthens me. Philipians 4:13. i Know very clearly that i cannot do these on my own. God's my supervisor.. He has control over me.. I will obey. I just have to obey and everything will be fine. I look forward to the Next WEEKEND. a step closer to Hols and freedom.

Invisible Love

2007-01-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

okay.
hello.
this won't be long because i don't have the Luxury sitting Down in front of the computer anymore.my home desktop hanged and it Died. I am butt-hot now looking for any kind soul who'll save my com and lend me a WindoWs labtop to work my projs.

I am angry.
with daddy-
the attitude he gave me today was terrible.
i hate it totally. such coldness
and unwillingness to help.
YikEs, wad rubbish la. it's so evil for me to say this. But i feel so strongly that i can never depend on you, daddy, for some things. Not all. okay let me get my point across. i am not trying to be rude or act unfilial. I just had to empty all these Out.

GOd. again you spoke through me today.
it really is an amazing feeling.
i felt strongly, so strongly the urge u
gave me to share with Chloe & Clara & Caleb & runjin.
you were with Us, i know.
GOd. ThankYou for Pastor.
I learnt a no. of things from Him today.

let me apply what i said today to my own life.
i was searching for those answers and you
let me answer my own questions today..
in such a special way.
Lord, you take control.
I Know you are With me. Guide me father.

I'll like to End off saying...
I loVe you Lord.
Be Evermore True to me.
Battle begins tmr.
Warrior peckHong with Charge
on with the Holy Spirit!

GoodNight WORLD.

PS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE! All things will Be fine.. TRUST & OBEY.

taggs

2007-01-09T06:24:00.000+08:00

hellO. i'm sorry i haven't been replying taggs.
will do it Now :)

dear Krisy, sure sure! send me the Photos sooon!
it was really nice to see you all over again when
we went to send kat off. Miss you!

my one & only lOoie! i dreamt of you last night and
it was all so very clear. You were coming to meet me
and marg for something' hahaas. Ok meet me soon pls!

jaja. Tabs, with that jaja-start i think you know this
para is for you..yeaa. last lap at schOol.
we got to Work Hard. Oh ya.. i need to ask you abt
the KL team thingy.
thanks for popping over here+

CANDICE! it's so super rare that you'll tag here :)
and i like it. come on here more often when you're free k
i am looking forward for you to return home. soooons

Hazel - yoos. thanks for that!

Maomao! yes lets jiayou together. it's difficult!!

JOY! i miss You loads too. I am sure you're liking it
over at Canada. I am so glad you made the decision to go Over!
Kat's gone off alr. so im missing you bOth!

Bonnie, thanks for the NewYear Greeting! happy new yr to you too!

THE SAD VISIT

2007-01-08T01:20:00.001+08:00

as i type this relatively short entry, my heart is aching a little because Kat's holding her boarding pass, ready to fly off to London and then transit to Frankfrut for her Doulos Training. i was there at the airport with peiwen and jomama and sharon to send her off :) well there were tonnes more ppl but these are the few that i could recognise.

Kat' gave me Hoops today, so that the yoyo she gave me when i left for london last August could have Company. Yea they come in a pair, Pink and Green! We took photos and we had a GoodBye Hug.. it' was short because i could feel the tears coming and.. Kat was telling me not to make her cry. So i was brave and all well and very quickly left to catch the last train Home. a long journey all the way from the airport and many thoughts were on my mind tonight.

I'll Post Up Photos Of Kat and Hoops really sOoon.

yup. probably dedicate an entry to her? when i'm free....

okay it's Monday. I'm already Sitting in to Monday and i feel the Blues.
GOOD NIGHT. I am so Not myself. I miss KAt already.
She's Up Up Up in the Sky
With her Baggage- held on tight
with 13 hours on the Plane
she'll reach London as her base
there transit flight will fly & fly
& Frankfurt's where she'll next stop by.

20 Years Old

2007-01-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

A Special Day today!
HaPPy Birthday Charmaine!
Yeah- dear charms..
it's your birthday today. Just wanna wish you a Happy Happy Day! We will meet Up for Dinner yup! Candice is so not ard at times like these. HAHA. can't wait for her to get Back. and.. yea i wish you all the best for your As results ok!

SEE YOU soon my Dear Friend!
my bestest friend from JC around.
haiii ya.

THE LAST LAP-

2007-01-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

all over again-
there was a Meet Up with Wendy today. and know wad-?? i never once felt super satisfied with the work i can offer to this lecturer of mine. It really makes me mad having to hide my pride for the work I've done. Why Why WHy? i can't understand why this is Happening. I feel like I'm losing the battle at school. Completion of my assignments by the end of Jan seems super duper ultra impossible.

Today's the 1st day of School. HAHAHA!
not for me but for everyone else in JC and the levels lower. yupp- there were a few times in these few days when i asked myself why didn't i try and make it in to JC? i really loved SAJC besides the fact that the uniform rocs and wayne was from that school. I could have been there with dear Charms and even get to know Knowledgeable Guys. hehe.

Okay. Cut off from writing this again-
BE back pretty soOn.

NEW YEAR

2007-01-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

A Big HellO to 2007!
yea. 2006 has been a great year and i have lots of Good memory from 06. but its time to Move on! hehe. Taiwan's NEw Year Celebrations' so CooL! 罗志祥 is coming on next! so nice so nice so so nice. Kk my house is Packed with the 21st floor neighbors and my relatives - so very Noisy.

Back to Summarise 2006 later!
WHEE. GOOD food today!

METAMORPHSIS-

2006-12-30T12:15:00.000+08:00

YES.
i caught a glimpse of meta last night. dear tabi thanks for going and letting me tag along with you as always. ahhaha. it was fun- with the np troop ~ and i think my stomach's going all funny. urgh having mee-goreng at like 3am in the Morning. hehe.
Okays. i played funny silly games in the wee hours of the morning. "ti ti ti - lift finger". "fuzzy Wazzy". "The latest fashion in Paris is.." hahahas. I feel Dumb enough for Once :)

OKAY. Worship was GOOD last night. I salute the Worship Leader for her Talents. She can really Sing and lead you into Worshipping God. And the Best part- she plays the guitar as she leads. Okay i saw a Poster for forerunners. and i'm looking it up on the web now.
BUSY- be back sooon

complexity

2006-12-29T15:54:00.000+08:00

" mixing MUSIC is like mixing DNA. It's Complex. "
i made up this statement and right now I'm thinking about how true my statement is. it isn't normal for me to be thinking this much and so thoroughly but somehow this stayed in my mind for a pretty long time.

hm, wad on earth did my statement mean? It has a few different meanings.
Perhaps it was the eekie feeling i got from doing my assignment?
Perhaps it was a sudden Revelation?
Perhaps I heard it somewhere before - but i doubt so. super weird thoughts in my head!

yea i would say mixing MUSIC is complex. it Certainly is for me!
But is mixing DNA complex? very likely to be, because I've read in books and magazines that DNA in itself is so Complex ~ trying to mix a complex thing - Won't that be challenging Complexity? The wonders of science i do not know all i know is that behind all this complicated stuffs, is a Big God in control. TOTAL control. Its amazing how God created DNA - and when we're form, we take bits and pieces of DNA from our parents and it's put together and WA LA! it becomes us.

okay - i am getting confused.
I made that statement because i am starting to feel very strongly about the complexity of Music. yeaa i've been recording in studios, getting Band Members together, stuck with having to do a Silly Mix, trying to listen out for different mixing techniques and so much more. It is not so very easy after all.
I feel lost and not knowing wad to do. I want to achieve so much more but every thing's stagnant. arrgh! and urgh is all i feel. totally disgusted. OKAY. i know its tough. it's difficult - it's DIFFICULT. pooooofs

ESKI MO MO

2006-12-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

it was a cold christmas this yr
paid a visit to ESKI BAR
One day looie & Candice & Charm & marg, we should go there together. REAL Chilly in there. OKAY some photos for everybody. hmmps.

there's this META urge inside me.
but i'm glad i'm going with tabs to
find Kat tmr. HOW EXCITING! hehe hehe.
aais. okay. lunch at Holland V now
and will be home to Do animation.
well. it sucks.
GOODBYE

no meta

2006-12-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

Gary's New Album is out!

It's called SuperMan and i can't wait purchase it from the music store, load it in to the Cd player, on my aircon in my room, lie on my bed and listen to it. The soundtracks are all written by him and i think that's talent. He's an inspiration.

okay.

all glory goes to God.

He made the sharing on Sunday excellent.

I felt his guidance as i shared.

all i had to do was just to allow him to work through me. yes, it was that simple. you follow, he leads.

everyone's at meta now-

aiis. i saw David and his meta room key today.

that made my heart itch. aww.

its been a cold rainy day again. 24 hrs of Rain~

"if only i had gills.

i'll like to swim all day.

flap that mini fins.

and blow my bubbles away."

you tell me.

2006-12-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

i hate the tone you used to speak to my dad
- okay or to any Old man you meet.
there were moments you showed me your gentle manly-ness tonight, when you helped in some stuffs, but it wasn't enough to make up for the tone i heard you speak tonight.

Lord, thanks for answering my prayer yet again today. You blew the dark clouds away and you kept your promise. Father, i was angry and tired with the other things that happened today. WHY? i can't understand. You told me to have an attitude of serving but i felt the anger doing the job. Lord, you know the people who really put in the effort and all and yet there were those who'd rather not do likewise.
i'm sick and tired of it.
the entire thing.
it feels super not encouraging to move on.
but i'm not going to say I QUIT!
i can't.

TO:
HAZEL ( my dearest ShiMu)
I don't know wad happened at the end but i know you' might be reading this because you've always been a faithful reader. from the bottom of my heart, i want to thankyou for every single thing you've done. From smiling at me each time i meet you to: giving me good advice to: helping me make major decisions for the party to: cutting scotchtape to paste the Decos. I know perfectly well i couldn't have handled it on my own.
shimu - if i've ever done anything wrong or wadsoever, i apologise. On the whole for the Party, it was 3 thumbs up.

MATT (my only SHIFU)
i hope i did things right when you were away.
i didn't like the things i was seeing but i couldn't stop functioning when you were -like in crisis. I don't know how to open my mouth to ask you about the situation but i'll be ard if you ever need me to listen. Jiayou on your side because i know things might be tough. Shifu, our prayer worked wonders today. Just a little something to tell you - no matter how perfect we might plan for a certain event, we got to prepare ourselves with an open mind that there'll still be flaws and loop holes. THAT is just because we are not perfect. that's all.
THANK YOU for letting me have this Chance of doing my part for the youth.

seriously i am feeling drained from all these and i think it's because i've used all of my energy every single bit of it to make up for the loss years of my service. aaaa. tmr's service and i just love it. amen for that. i can't believe all these coming out from me.
Goodnight WORLD. and hello GOD.

maxed-up

2006-12-22T23:46:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry for my lack of faith just now.
i didn't know what i was thinking off.

i am hanging on now Lord,
i know you care - all these are just obstacles set for me to grow and to test my level of Faith. you are working in your mighty ways & thank you once again for giving me air to breathe and legs to walk to music class today.

okay the word is shagged.
i feel totally exhausted but things still has to be done. there are so many times when i wanna throw the whole responsibility to shifu because he has Hazel to Help and he's on Hols. But... that's selfish. It's been a hard time but tomorrow's the DAY. Lord. i'm trusting you for No Rain. Just GOOD strong wind to make everyone feel the Christmas Breeze.

final decision - not going for MetaCamp.
Thankyouu tabi for helping me to think with a Sound mind. I know my piorities and i need to set them right. ooook

merry christmas eve's eve to me and candice and the rest of the World.

HOW?

2006-12-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

meta meta meta
meta meta meta
meta meta meta

camp camp camp

aiiis.

hols?

2006-12-19T02:12:00.000+08:00

oh yes.
I've been bogged down with too much stuffs.
i think i need a breather.
it's past 2 am now.
Marg's HOME!
back from HONGKONG :)
Good sleep Tonight!

PRO-RECORDS

2006-12-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

Allegro!
Today i had with me a Bunch of SUper Nice and professional players-to-be. Ahh, yes i think we Had fun doing the whole recording. Really wanna say THANKYOU for being soooo patient and humble. I listened back again today and i think we sounded quite professional~ will post up the recording soundtrack soon. hehe this is Getting Exciting!

<< THE NP CHRIST R.O.C.K.E.R.S >>

Okay. Brief Intro~
We had Spiked-up Zen on the Drums, Funny AhGong on the Bass (with a Lightning Strap), super-Jay-ed AK on the Guitar and Bestest tabi as the vocalist! Oh and myself. i almost forgot about that. the KidVoice bear. We played and recorded 3 songs today. 2 for my audio assignment and 1 Christmasy one for Fun! it was Funnny~

Hip Hip Hurray. The Picture above shows the Whole team on the project today! one of the funniest team ever and i enjoyed it.

Although next door today, there were some Pro-Malay rockers, but i still wanna thank God because he Provided me with the Best friends on earth. yeaa Excluding mao.. i realise that we all had a common Goal in our hearts. I think deep down, we wanna be Playing for YOU!

thank you GOD for the experience today.

ONE DAY- i want to be Recording Them

Professionally. i will work towards my dream!

once again.
Tabi, AK, AhGong, Zen..
THANKS..!